Day 119 of 365 hi

Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow awaits and today is beautiful.


xoxo,
Tigerlily

Day 118 of 365 HELLO:)

Naar de kerk geweest :)

Gekke dromen gehad.

'That moment when you realize, this all means more to you that it does to him.'

'Lie to me again.' she said
'I love you.' he whispered.

Waiting again.

Those stupid 20 seconds of insane courage, they made me do it again.
Talk to you again.

Goodnight,

Tigeflily

Day 117 of 365 working and waiting

Little Mix - How Ya Doin' love this song. ahah, the lyrics are lovely


Worked all day, today. it was okay. very tiring.
Did nothing tonight.
It sucked.

Your fault.



Still crazy,

Tigerlily

Day 116 of 365 THE HAGUE

Today was busy and long and pretty awesome ! :)

I went to The Hague with a friend
We had a picture taking at school. The final picture, with everyone leaving school this year, on it. It was pretty hilarious.

Then I when to the city with Sarah.
I'll show you pictures.
We went to 'Het Gemeentemuseum Den Haag'
and we went shopping (: and had a hot-chocolate.

Art loving,
Tigerlily


Ps: 'You said you would never let me go,
I'm going to hold you to that promise'
<3 //

Day 115 of 365 lange dag

Day 114 of 365 feel

This is what it feels like, you know

Day 113 of 365 not much

Ik kan het niet meer zo goed herinneren wat ik heb gedaan.
ik had examen training

okey, boring



it was probably a good day :)


love,
Tijger lelie

Day 112 of 365 monday monday monday

Heyaaaa
vandaag was een leuke dag. Niet zo zeer zo productief als het had moeten zijn, maar oh well..
Eerst had ik frans sochtends. Ik heb een examen gemaakt van 2010 ofzo. Geoefenend. Ik had een voldoende, laten we het daar op houden. Ik ben goed in Frans.. maar een soort van alleen maar in opwellingen; dus als ik niet me verdiep in de taal, als ik me niet kan concentreren of whatever, dan bak ik er niks van.. anyway. dat heb ik dus gedaan.

S'middags zou ik naar JP, you guys are seeing a trend here. Haha, nee valt wel mee. Alleen deze twee dagen was ik in huize R. Ik zou er s'middags heen gaan.. maar ik moest natuurlijk nog van alles regelen, lekker op z'n Hannah's toen. Ging mn fiets (of eigenlijk die van mn pa) nog kapot.. de snelbinders (dat woord zocht ik!) waren tussen het wiel gegaan.. vet dom maar ja.
toen kreeg ik nog een lik van de hond van de buren, wat echt heel ranzig was. en ik had net m'n makeup gedaan en blabla. dus dat was heel fijn. Lief beest hoor. Ik hou van honden. Zo lang ze maar niet te groot zijn en ze niet kwijlen..
en toen ging ik maar lopend.
Dus kwam ik langs paarden. En ik dacht; ik ben nu toch in de beesten-mood, laat ik ze even wat gras geven. Dus ik die paarden 'roepen' hoe noem je dat ? als je zo met je tong klikt?
Dus ik die paarden gras geven,
toen kwam er een vrouwtje langs, die aan het fietsen was met haar man. ze stopte en gaf mij wat oud brood om aan de paarden te geven.

Toen heerlijke wraps gegeten met D en JP en Marije :)

s'avonds gebelt met Elienne en de iPod Classic van JP geinstalleerd


Happy but tired,
Tijger lelie

Day 111 of 365 BEAUTIFUL

Today was amazing okay
Okay, I will draw you picture:
My best friend, Elienne; I've mentioned her before, is in Africa, for an internship. Her boyfriend, JP, is also a friend of mine and two of his friends also became friends of mine. And when they are staying over at JP's for the weekend, JP calls me. And I will hang out at his house with everyone, on sunday. Okay, its complicated but 'his is house' is like the house of his foster parents. Which we call Aunt G and uncle D. They are such warm, wonderful, loving, God-fearing people. Even if you're a total stranger, you will feel instantly at home. Everyone is respecting and in for some good fun or a serious conversation. Its always a happiness boots to have been there. And your heart feels a little but lighter when I step out of the house. It's amazing:)
Now the story. 
Sunday afternoon. 21st of april, 2013. The sun is shining and we are in the 'zit-kuil' I'm not sure how to translate that. It's a round place in the back of the garden, which is a little bit lower than the remaining of the garden. 'Sitting-hole'. Anyway, everyone is there. And very spontaneous, the idea pops up to have a barbecue with some improvised salad and some bread. Everyone like that idea.
We skip a little forward. 
We were done eating, we played some guitar and talked. And somehow the crazy idea came to mind to throw a whipped-cream can on the fire. (Which no one in its right mine would ever thing, because its dangerous) but the young-ones thought it wouldn't be so -shocking-
We'll you can guess what happened. JP threw the can on the fire. I walked a way, because I was very close to the fire. A minute later there was this mega big bang. (ha ha) Explosion. Very one was shocked of course, and kind of terrified. And everyone looked at JP. As in: ... you kind of did this. I looked at him as well, and people started saying: 'Oh my. What happened?!' 'What..' 'Wow' 'JP!' 
And I saw him look around like: 'what, where, what is happening.?!' It was pretty funny.. But than I saw a stream (I'm not exaggerating) of blood came down his neck to his chest, in his white talk top. 
And someone called: 'You are wounded!!' And everyone handled very quickly. He took of his shirt and pushed it to the back of his head. Jaco, who was helping him, moved like one with him to the car.
Al the boys were in the car in a few seconds. Than the other two guys got in another car and raced to the hospital with his insurance pass and stuff. Because you need that.
Sooo this is a long story.
Anyway he got stitches in his head.. and it was pretty nasy, but very interesting to look at..
And the weird thing is: he didn't feel anything.. it didn't hurt him.

Okay, in the afternoon we watched The Intouchables. Amazing movie. The second time I saw it. Loved it again.
And we went to the beach with the 6 of us: Monica, Jaco, JP, Marien, Wilmar and I. That was wonderful :) some lovely conversations. And boy talk hahaha. It was good fun.
Love those people a lot.

Dear Elienne, I miss you, you know I do. Enjoy your time in Africa as much as you can. You will never experience this again. When you're back we'll catch up on everything. Stay strong <3 love you. xoxo

Soooo, yah.
This was it. this was my sunday..

I'm gonna catch up guys, I really do. I'm just.. busy with other stuff I guess.


Love you loads,

Obviously,
Tigerlily

Ik met JP z'n bril, Wilmar met mijn bril = verwarrend

Almost everyone:)

Film kieken op de zondag

Even checken of er echt geen eend onder de auto zat..

The ocean

Friends

Day 110 of 365 OTHER PERSPECTIVES

Hey guys
sooo
I don't really know how to describe this is.
It was soooo awesome..
The day before yesterday-night, I had a Skype call with really awesome friend of mine. And it was just lovely as always.
And then I had a phone call with Judith. Which was great:) We talked over some stuff that bugged us, and it was good .. like in good-feel-comfortable-with-each-other-friendship-amazingness. I love that girl like you can't imagine. And I'm so glad I met her.

And then Friday was long and tiring.. is that even a word? I don't know how to write it.
Anyway.
Today was Saturday. And I had to work from 10-14. and than I was at my dads house, and my friend, Melanie, texts me saying: its so beautiful outside, I feel like taking pictures.
So I call her, and I say: dude, I'm on my way.
(that's pretty accurate to how it went)
So we made pictures and relaxed in the sun and listened to some really good music. and it was kind of perfect. We had dinner had her place with the rest of her family and always when I'm there, it kind of feels like a second home. And I like that very much.

There happened something else today.. there was an accident. And two boys from around the town where I live died in that accident. And 1 of the guys I kind of know.. and talked to. Went to the same school. He was only 17 and the other guy was 22.
Where I live is a small community. And everybody knows everybody around here.. it's kinda like that.
So this was very shocking and in no time everybody knew about it.
I wrote this poem:

Tears in my eyes
Can't take it in
Words fail
And I can only pray
I pray to God
to help the family's 
May support and love and prayers be send their ways
And I pray that their life's were worth it
May there always be hope
Hope for the people crying their hearts outBecause what else is there to do,
but hope for a better day

That's all I have to say.

I hope you have a good weekend :)
Talk to you tomorrow


Be save,
Tiger lily

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VtwIMIoXpmo

Day 109 of 365 the world

I'm so tired
I had a long day.
But there are a view people who mean so much to me and to some of them.. I just pay to little attention. And thats not right.
And I'm trying my very best. And sometimes its enough. But sometimes its not. And that hurts sometimes.



'Tears don't mean you're losing.'


I really love you,
Tiger lily




Ps: boy, you drive me insane and I don't know what I should do with you/about it.

Day 108 of 365 a lot of life lessons. Which I can not repeat. Search for yourself. :)

Go watch this, please go watch this first :) the post is about this short YouTube video

"There's a hint of sexiness in and something very wise and something even more mysterious behind his voice. It's enchanting. A very beautiful creature, you are indeed, mister Depp.'" - That was my response 

Today was a good, some how productive, beautiful and overall happy day.

I feel good today, guys. I feel good. And I'm saying this to myself.
And I mean it. Today I wore a very pretty new shirt. I don't very often buy myself new clothes. And I don't like shopping because most of the time I kind of end up disappointed. And that sucks. It sometimes makes me a bit self conscious. - not in a good way - like I don't feel comfortable with my body.. But on the other hand, now I found something that fits and is very pretty looking and it's flattering. And I feel good with how I look and how I feel. And that's what it's about, ain't it? God made me this way, and I am beautiful in my own unique way. I am special! 

Of course sometimes it's good to hear from someone else that you look good, even from your mom, because  I know she always means it when she says that. I have people around me who do that, and I am grateful for that and for them.
It's important, for myself and for other people out there, to know that society doesn't have a saying in what divines beauty. (I wrote a poem about that, you can read it by clicking here) They claim to have a saying, though. They claim to be like the president of the whole 'being beautiful' .. They say you're beautiful when they tell you you are (by make-up ad's, commercials, magazines, everything around you) But you're not. You're beautiful because you are you! You are a living thing and if you watched Johnny Depps Interview, I very much agree with what he says about what turns him on and later on when he talks about this later on, he says: 'We forget what a gift every single breath is.' And that's true you know. Think about it. Breathing. It's something so natural, and yet something so vulnerable and literally a feature you can't live without. 

'What turns you on?' I asked.

'Breathing.' He said.  

You, whose reading this: you're very beautiful and even a little sexy, to start with the fact that you're breathing. Dang, that make you kinda hot, now when I think about it. Look at you! You breathing person. You're so beautiful.

No matter the looks, or the amount of money you earn or do or do not have, of your college degree, or the fact that you cry yourself to sleep every other night; no matter all that, you are breathing and by that anticipating in our world that we share. And that, my gorgeous friend, make you beautiful.

Okay, now.. I took this way deep. Much deeper that I was supposed to take it. But hey, everyone like a good life lesson. 

Now, you get your beautiful soul out there! And just be you. :)

I love you, dear reader.

Have a great life.

Beautiful,

Tiger lily

Day 107 of 365 happiness

Ik voel me gelukkig op het moment van spreken.
Ik heb mensen om me heen die om me geven.
Het lukt me elke dag weer om een glimlach op mijn gezicht te toveren.
Nou ja, ik moet zeggen: niet uit eigen kracht! God is mijn papa in de hemel en ik voel Hem dichtbij. En dat vind ik fijn, want ik ben iemand die graag dingen voelt; emoties. En dus als God zich zo dichtbij laat voelen dan doet dat veel met me. Ik leg te weinig energie in mijn relatie met Hem. Ik laat te weinig blijken dat ik van Hem houd, maar ik weet dat God me nooit los laat. Hij laat me zelf stappen zetten, net zoals een vader zijn kind los laat lopen als het zijn eerste stapjes gaat zetten. En dan kan het kind wel eens vallen, ik kan wel eens vallen. En dat doe ik. Dat weet ik van mezelf. En dat vind ik niet leuk, want dat zit nou eenmaal in mensen: die houden er niet van als hun ego word geschaad.
Maar Hij helpt me overeind of soms laat Hij me zelf proberen op te staan.
Ondanks alles weer ik dat Jezus mijn Vriend en Verlosser is en dat Hij me bemoedigd en een veilige plek is om te huilen en te lachen.

Ik ben ook blij dat er muziek is. Het is iets dat spreekt voor gevoel en soms dingen zo duidelijk kan zeggen. De woorden en melodieën die herinneringen creëren en je brengen naar onbereikbare plekken. Ik hou er van.

'He had very little, but he always had books.' :)

Ik ben ook blij met mijn boeken. Dat er mensen die zo geweldig fantasierijk kunnen schrijven! Dat je gewoon in een totaal nieuwe wereld kunt duiken en even al het andere kunt vergeten. Love it!!
Ik ben lekker opdreef op het moment. Gister weer een boek uitgelezen, nu in een nieuw boek beginnen. Het ontspant me en laat me even alles vergeten. Een mens heeft dat soms nodig en boeken lezen doet dat voor me.

Ik ben dankbaar voor de bijzondere vriendschappen die ik heb opgedaan tot nu toe. Ook al weet ik uit ervaring dat je dat nooit helemaal met zekerheid kunt zeggen; weet ik wel dat ik met veel van deze mensen nog een lange vriendschap in het voor uitzicht heb.

Ook ben ik gelukkig omdat ik op school zit en kan leren en lezen en alles kan doen. En dat dit mogelijk is in Nederland. Het lijkt zo vanzelfsprekend, maar dat is het niet en dat moet ik me realiseren.
Ik denk God voor De Passie. Voor de mooie twee jaar die ik daar heb gehad. De leuke gezellige gekke en geweldige mensen die ik daar heb leren kennen!
De bijzondere dingen die ik daar heb mee gemaakt en gesprekken die ik heb gehad. Ik heb veel geleerd. Over mezelf, over de wereld en over God.

Ik ben ook gelukkig door mijn familie: mijn vader, mijn moeder, mijn twee lieve zussen en alle aanhang die daar bij hoort. Ze geven om me en zijn blij met me en dat maakt me gelukkig. Ik mag me gekke zelf zijn. En dat is best fijn;)

Ik dank God voor vrienden, voor muziek, voor boeken, voor school, voor familie en voor het leven.

Ik ben op weg naar school voor een paar uurtjes examentraining Nederlands.
Ik hoop dat de zinsopbouw in deze post een beetje goed is. En ik hoop natuurlijk dat ik alle werkwoord dingen goed heb gedaan. Ik heb iets gemist op de Basisschool ofzo ;p want ik faalde altijd in spelling.

Gelukkig dat ik leef,
Tijger lelie

Day 106 of 365 school day

Vandaag was voor mij de eerste dag van de examentraining. Eerste wiskunde en toen frans.
Het was best wel oke.
Frans was privé les en ik wil gewoon mevrouw R. even noemen, bless her heart! Zij is zo'n geweldige vrouw!
Vol passie en liefde voor de franse taal en ook het overbrengen daarvan. Ze is in voor een geintje en houd van God met haar hele hart.
Bijzonder mensen! Niet vergeten!

Vanavond opgepast.
En mn boek uitgelezen, An Abundance of Katherines. Yay:)
Nu het volgende boek.



Sleep tight,
Tijgerrrrr lelie

Day 105 of 365 OH HAPPY DAY

Today was a good, relax, happy, normal day. Today is a good example of how I wish was like at the moment. Today, everyday. But it isn't and reality is pretty dang hard. And so I have to face it!

I left Delft today and travelled back to my own place. I had SUCH a great weekend. I'm so blessed and so filled with joy.

I'm currently reading An Abundance of Katherines by John Green. And I've read a couple of pages, 20 something, of Beth Revis' Across The Universe. because I just couldn't resist ^^
Pretty excited about both of those books.

I cleaned my room. I should've been making/practicing parts of a maths exam. FISH (Fug It Shit Happens) Some inside joke.

Goodnight you beautiful nerds <3
Tiger lily

Day 104 of 365 the day afterrrrr

Vandaag was een top dag! Heeerlijk uitgeslapem, na besloten te hebben toch niet naar de kerk te gaan.
Lekker gebruncht, en gedoucht en chill gedaan. Hilarische filmpjes op youtube gekeken, nagels gelakt, chocola gegeten, goede gesprekken gehad, heerlijk in de tuin gezeten en gegeten. :))
Het zonnetje liet zich zelfs zien ! Ook heel fijn.
S'avonds Pitch Perfect gekeken. Blijft een leuke film ^^

Heeeeel veel Chrisphope Maé geluisterd. Wat een man is dat <3 alleen maar liefde voor hem en zijn prachtige franse stem en geweldige kledingstyle. Love it:)



De mooiere dagen in het leven,
Tijger lelie

Day 103 of 2013 TO DAY IS EXCITING :)

Yay!! Vanavond housewarming bij Itte en Nadine :D super veel zin in !
Word suuuper leeukk:))

En dan in Delft logeren!

Day 102 of 365 the end (of the beginning)

Finally! I did the presentation I was so anxious about. I finally did it. And I did pretty good.
I started reading An Abundance of Katherines. It soo different from Twilight Saga. So it takes awhile to get used to.
I had my last day of school as well.
It was okay. A little weird.

Exshausted,
Tigerlily

Day 101 of 365 yaaalaaadaalala:))

Vandaag was een dag met mixed feelings
Zoals vaker gebeurd
Maar het was zeker weten met nadruk op de positieve kant.
En morgen heb ik het idee dat ik veel te doen heb
Maar dat is niet zo. Dus dat word boek een heel stuk-tot- bijna uit lezen!! Yay

Laatste les godsdienst was herinneringswaardig. Of laat ik zeggen: meneer Kollestaart ! :)

Ik hou van mn chummy

Weer toffe mensen gesprokwn vandaag

God is fantastisch

Voldaan moe,
Tijger lelie